THE LIEBSTER AWARD

HEY HEY!
IT'S THE LIEBSTER AWARD GUYSSSSS :)

Photo credits to Maine's blog

I was nominated by Maine for this award! Thanks :P
These are her questions:-

When you go shopping, what are the sort of things that would interest you?

- mostly shoes (sneakers, heels and more) and clothing.        

Favorite outfit?

- my favorite outfit at home would be big shirts and shorts whereas when I'm out chilling with friends it would be jeans and t-shirt, simply, nice and comfy :]

Would you rather be musical, creative or talented in writing?

-I would rather be creative. 

Favorite unusual snack?

-don't have any but my favorite snack would be mamee; it reminds of my childhood days.

What do you dislike most in a person's personality?    

-Rude, selfish and proud 

                                
Does the opinion of others about you affect you in any way?

-I would take their opinion into consideration and most of the time it does affects me in every ways.

Are you: rebellious, a stickler to the rules or a little of both?

-I guess I'm a little of both but it also depends on the situation and the people that I am dealing with. 
BE GOOD TO ME AND I WILL LISTEN TO YOU !!!( but I will bring my brains along. hehe)

If you like someone, would you admit to it at all?

-Starting I won't but when I reach a limit, somehow I would admit to it

Who knows you best? (And would you drag that person to the grave too when you die, so that your secrets are not revealed?)

- I have some friends that knows my secrets but I still think my mum knows me best but I wouldn't want to drag her to the grave with me when I am dead.

I certainly wouldn't mind if my secrets are revealed after I died because I'M DEAD!!! who cares about a dead person's secret.

Describe a recent experience that you don't ever want to forget.

-It would be the chilling time I had with my classmates when teacher was absent.

Are you an open book or a secretive person?

- I'm a little of both. I am open minded towards certain things and towards certain people and also secretive towards certain things and towards certain people. After all, everyone have their own secret to keep!

These are the 11 facts about me. 
1) Currently 17 and I am gonna graduate soon from high school. Sigh :(
2) I am in account stream but accounting is my weakest subject.
3) love baking and hope to bake for my class before i graduate.
4) My favorite subjects would be maths and addmaths because they are challenging and i like challenges.
5)I personally think that guys that knows how to dance, play music instruments or play basketball are hot.
6) I enjoy watching guys playing basketball. I'm serious, not joking at all.
7) I think I have a weird taste for guys. I like guys that are older than me atleast 5 years and above. I just think that older guys are more mature in relationship and would take relationship more seriously.
8) I have my own ways for showing my love to my friends. When I take you as a friend, I would annoy you all the time.
9) I have no specific taste of songs. I just love all songs that are nice to me.
10) Not into Korean drama but I love watching Running Man.
11) I love playing soft toys because they are so cute and fluffy. Hehe

I'm done for now. BYE!

Sunshine maybe? Hmmm

THE SUNSHINE AWARD!!!

OMG!Its so bright! 

Got this from Maine's blog

I was nominated by Maine( go check out her blog). She is my friend, we grew up together in church. I just wanna say I'm glad I have a friend like you Maine. 

-Thanks for nominating me ^^

RULES:

• Thank the person who nominated you.
• Answer the questions.
• Nominate a bunch of people.
• Give them questions for homework.
• Tell them they have homework.
• Put the award picture on your blog.

Her questions:-

1. What do you like most about yourself?

- I guess it would be my lovely brown hair.

2. If you liked someone, what would you do about it?

- I would try to become his friend and understand him. This makes things less awkward when he is around. HAHA. But surely I would try to be as normal as I can when he is around, so that no one finds out that I like him. LOL!

3. How are you like in social situations? Are you friendly or awkward or plain rude (like me,lol)?

-Lemme see...

I'm friendly when we have common topic, awkward when we don't and rude when you don't pay attention to me when I'm talking to you.

4. What do you like to do most?

-Going on carousell and check out those clothings and of course chatting with besties on whatsapp.
5. Favorite websites or apps?

-Whatsapp and Snapchat.
6. What is your biggest accomplishment?

-My biggest accomplishment? never once fail add maths maybe? I have no idea what is my biggest accomplishment.
7. What sort of clothes do you like to wear?

- Comfortable clothes. Mostly short pants and t-shirt.

8. Name three places you would love to travel to.

- I don't have any specific places that I wouldn't love to travel to, but I guess I have something for beaches <3
9. What do you treasure most? (In terms of belongings)

- My phone I guess.
10. What's your most hated nickname?

- EASTER, OYSTER, MONSTER, GANGSTER and many more. I can't choose which one I hate most, because I hate it all. I only like it when people call me HAMSTER. hehe :)

MY QUESTIONS:-

1) If you could go back in time, what would you do?

2)What would like to change about yourself? Your looks?attitude? or just remain the same?

3)What do you like most about your closest friend?

4)What is the most craziest thing you have ever done in your life?

5)When your avoiding someone, what would you do?

6)Are you book smart or street smart? Explain why you think so.

7)If you were given a gun with only 2 bullets, who will you shoot?

8)When was your most memorable moment with your family?

9) Dad and mum are argueing, whose side are you on?

10)If you know you are gonna die in 3 days time, how would spend your last 3 days?

I'm nominating anyone that is reading this. 

Till next time. bye

Its been awhile.

Hi there lovely peoples, I have not been blogging for quite awhile. I'm sorry, my dad took the laptop back to office therefore I couldn't blog even if i wanted to.

Lets skip all the bullshit..

Im gonna blog about my week now.

Monday
I skipped school, because I really didn't want to go, no reasons. Woke up at 8 and went to Mcdonald Bukit Tinggi for breakfast and I studied there. It was quite noisy because there were a few students from the school nearby there making alot of noise. Suddenly they would start singing, suddenly they would start laughing loudly and they talked really loud.  Thank God, I brought my MP3 along with me. I  had my earphone on and I started studying. In between, I took a break and used the wifi there. Wanted to update my whatsapp but I couldn't, so I uninstalled it and installed it back. Guess what? Ive lost all my whatsapp chat :(
Studied till 12, then went Giant to find my mum. After that, I went Mcdonald in Andalas, had lunch and I met JOY.  She said that Indy is joining later.

I planned to study alone!!!!!!!(._.) 

I sat with joy till indy came then i moved to the table infront, had my earphones on again. Studied till 3+, then my friend said that he is on the way home. He picked me up and we went and chill abit. Then he fetched me home.

Tuesday
I seriously did not want to go to school but I cannot be skipping school every single day right?
Reached school and everyone was rushing for addmaths. Teacher gave us extra exercises since last year and he said that he wanted to collect it on Wed, those that didn't pass up would get a rotan per  set. Ouch!

I went and threw rubbish and gave Ming his trial timetable and he said he didn't get the new class timetable. I went back to my place, took the timetable and gave it to him. We had a little conversation then.

Me: nah, your timetable.
Ming: can you help me enlarge it?
Me: err, no. even if i enlarged it for you, I have no printer to print it.
Ming: go out and print la, you like to going out right?
Me: yea man. Then why not you bring me out lah?

He was just speechless after that. HAHAHAH

went to throw rubbish again and he wanted to get back on me. (I have lots of rubbish. HEHE)

ming: Esther, these few days you like fatter already
me: Oh really. I didn't know you were noticing me all this while.
SPEECHLESS AGAIN. HAHA

Then later on after recess, the guys were talking about going to SG after spm and i sort of overheard it. He came later to ask whether I wanna join them and he gave me a really creepy face....(._.)
He said that they are still planning and i told him to get back to me after they finish planning.Then I asked, "why did you invite me only, what about others?" And he said, "because I want go with you only mah.... "(OKAY. STOP FLIRTING WITH ME LAHHHH. just kidding)

all those jokes that happened made me glad that i made it for school.

wed.thurs.friday 

these three days were all about rushing for addmaths. I skipped jogging the whole week, because I was rushing for addmaths. Thank God I finished it on time and handed it up. YAY!

Saturday
went to school for C.U AGM. Before going to class, I dropped by to see Celine and her group practicing their Indian dance for performance on monday. She dances really well, thumbs to everyone that were dancing, you guys dance really well.  Then I left for AGM,  Im glad Im now retired. It had been great serving in Christian Union.
Went home and at 5pm, I went jogging. I thought I wouldn't have enough stamina to jog but I jogged further than I usually do. But after that, I felted dizzy, felt like I was gonna faint anytime.

Sunday
Woke up at 8, had breakfast and went for tuition. Mr. Boon taught us set, matrixs and graph. Tuition was all fine except that noisy guy behind me (you know who you are).  11.41 class ended. Me and Samantha went downstairs and had lunch. TOMYAM YEEMEE :) YUMYUM!!!!
We didn't talk much maybe it was because the  noodle was too good. HAHAHAHAA. LOL
We went walking around after lunch and we walked passed this old man, he was just standing there, holding his phone with his phone camera facing us.

Ehhh, uncle ah, are you talking pictures of us??? ---> that was the question in my mind.

We walked back to the tuition centre and met AiWei and the creepy old man AGAIN! He was holding his phone with the phone camera facing us AGAIN! I looked at him and he just left.

Chatted with samatha and AiWei for awhile till aiwei's  and my parents came then I asked Samantha to wait infront of 711 for her dad, because I think its safer.
Walked to the car and went home. Napped abit and I followed my parents to send my brother to the bus station in Shah  Alam. His bus was supposed to be a 2.30pm bus but idk why the bus was full, so he gotta wait for another bus. By 2.50pm like that only he boarded the bus, and it was raining. My dad actually called us to wait for him to drive the car over but I didn't want to wait, so I dragged my mum with me and we ran to the car. It was raining heavily on the way back from Shah Alam and my dad drove really fast, so scary (._.) But no worries, we reached home safely.

I don't think I'm able to go for my jog today,the rain is still pouring :( Nevermind. i shall just go sleep or do my homework.

thats all I guess about my week.
Till next time <3

CONFESSION TIME!

Note: Don't read if you can't take depression and my confessions. 

I woke up in the morning feeling like this :(

It is a beautiful morning but I just don't know why, I don't have any mood for it. I've been feeling like that for quite awhile already. I am not sad but just feeling empty. Sometimes I would just go up and lock myself in my room, hug my bear and start crying for no reason. I juat can never understand why my happy days can't last long, when I feel that my sad days are over, then another sad thing will happen. The worst part is no one believes that I am going through all this just because I always look happy. 

Some people ask me why don't I find someone to talk about this? Ok, peoples! I did find someone to talk to when I was going through this last time and what I was adviced to do was to 'deal with it' or to 'ignore it'. Seriously, that won't help at all, thats why I don't find anyone to talk about this anymore.

I am really sorry 

Since young, I felt like I am never good enough for anything and anyone. I am not good in my studies, not that pretty, no music background, nothing. Everytime when I think about this, I just feel like crying. I did wonder before why am I even born? I learn how to bake, how to do cross stitch and all not because I am very free, it is because it makes me feel useful and I am happy when I am doing those stuff.

Whenever I see my friends going through a break up and they would cut themselves with a blade and have many scars on their hand the next day when they come to school. I always scold them for being stupid to hurt themselves for someone that is not worth it, but then I did do that before too. Those scars on my hand reminds me of those bad days and I really don't want to go back there.  I realize that it is when you feel pain physically then you would only know how pain is it mentally. 

I am struggling with some stuff right now.

1. Feeling guilty for complaining so much about someone. 

Ya. so for the pass feel days, I've been posting some status on facebook, complaining about this and that. I was complaining about someone and I seriously sorry for doing that. I should have understand what you were going through. I am truly sorry.

2. Scared of gaining weight.

I am just not motivated to jog these days, but I really don't want to gain weight. 

3. Care too much for others

yes, it seems like I care alot and I tend to over think when someone I talked to everyday just stoo talking to me. Maybe they are just busy but I would start thinking that it was something I did that makes them stoo talking to me.

4. Care too much about what others think about me

I may have told most of my friends that I don't care about what others think about me, but actually  I do care about it. In fact, I care quite alot about it which is a bad thing.

5. Longing to find a true friend that I can count on in everything

 I am just saying I hope to find that one friend that I can count on and share my problems with.

6. Studies!

Results are not getting better but SPM is getting closer. 

I am trying to find ways to deal with all my problems. Most of the times I will hug my teddy when I'm really not in the mood. (thx teddy)

Lastly, this post is just all about my feelings. 

sorry if I have offended you in any ways. I am blogging about it because I have no one to talk to about this.

-That's all-

-Thanks for dropping by-

Appendix. POWWOW2014. GMA. SELFIE!!!

Hey there people. I'm back here once again to blog.Sorry for not blogging for the past 5 months.

 So ya, I got my appendix surgery on 3/5/2014. Certainly didn't know how did I get it because I did not run or jump after meal. Soooo ya, I was admitted to the hospital on Saturday (3/5) afternoon, gotta skip my IR night.... Doctor came and told me that the operation is atnight and he also mentioned that I cannot eat or drink anything for the moment. Long story short, the surgery went well and I really wanna thank the doctor and nurse for taking good care of me. And of course those that made time to visit me, a big thank you to you guys. (Y)

These are the photos of my meals in the hospital

This was my breakfast on sunday.  

Fish porridge. Lipton tea. Tasteless apple juice >.<

Lunch on sunday.

The chicken and mix vege was good. (Y)

Dinner on sunday.

Lunch  on monday. 

Dinner on monday.

Believe or not, I only ate the banana for this meal.

                                   

This was breakfast on tuesday morning.

                                                 

and ya. not forgetting my hand which was poke by a needle.

believe or not, me and my mother were laughing when the

nurse poke the needle into my hand.

Thats all about Appendix i guess! After my surgery, I was on MC for two weeks. so ya, gotta skip my mid term exam. 

Next it was POWWOW! certainly a great camp, though it rained for 3 days and our tents were flooded, most of my clothes were wet. I enjoyed the games, the night service and also enjoyed having great bonding time with my friends. Thanks to the commanders that planned this camp. 

How can I FORGET! I also got my GMA on the second day of camp. Glad that I am now officially a GMA holder. A big thank you to those that help me out with my merits and encouraged me when I was about to let go.

This are some of the photos taken in camp.

Ice cream time!

Cheryl trying her best to catch nich while he was on the high rope course

                                       

Grorp photo before we left the campsite

Last but not least, a group pic of all GMA holders

Congrats everyone!

Thats about it! Thanks for dropping by.

My holiday =)

NOTE: sorry for the long post and also sorry if I have any grammer mistakes. =)

Hey guys. Haven't been blogging for a while already. Hahah. I was a little busy this holiday and to be honest with you, I was lazy too.

Anyways, I enjoyed my holiday alot. Before even school ends, I've already start skipping school and go to church and help out in adventure station. Everyday from 10-5 I will be in church, helping out and also playing with my friends at the same time. Because of VBS, I've got to know some new friends and also got closer with some of my friends such as, E, aijean, cheryl sin, indy, keith and also the little chubby josh tan. I really miss those moments we hang out after VBS. I still remember there was once that we gathered together and Andrew shared some ghost story and after that we went for dinner at the Bak Kut Teh shop nearby. We continued talking till the owner just left the tables for us outside and closed the shop. That night, I reached home at 11.58pm. WOW! :)  Although I still get to meet them every sunday, but it is just different.

And then a week after VBS was over, I joined the adventure crew for movie ( E didn't join us, he was in SG) We watched The Hobbit that day. The movie was really good, but I sat with the wrong bunch. :(

I remember on 9/12, andrew got admitted to the hospital because he got lung infection :( That night, me, E and cheryl went to visit him. HAHAHAHA. The hospital has internet!!! Me and cheryl used Andrew's laptop to watch videos on youtube while E slept on the sofa. That night we stayed there because E was having a bad headache :( 

The another night, me, keith, indy and E visited andrew again. But that  night, only indy stayed in the hospital. Me, keith and E went home.

Then then.... It was Rangers Christmas Party. We had great fun there. E and andrew were having fun pranking people with the power bank. They pranked almost all the commanders there and some rangers too, and most of them fall for it. They belived that the power bank is a phone!! HHAHAHA. :)

And then, it was caroling. That was on 23rd of Disember. Me and aijean reached there quite early, therefore we went for a drink at the nearby shop. We started talking so much, I still remember we were talking about my friend and then somehow we started talking abt friendzoning guys and all..
We talked so much that i didn't know one hour just pass... We went back to church and practise for awhile then off we go to the houses.

Next it was Christmas day. Meet up in church with my friends, we sat together. And I was busy giving out the present to my friends. After PnW, it was Christams production. It was really good, thumbs up for it. After church, we went Andrew's house for lunch. After lunch we played BANG! Its a card game anyway.

The funniest part of the game was when Andrew asked aijean
Andrew: Do u have any missed cards?
Aijean: ya, I got two missed cards.

By saying that, aijean just let all of us know what card is she having. LOL :)
After that, I went home and had KFC for dinner with my family.

And here I am now in Bukit Gambang Resort, Pahang. Will update you guys more in the next post!

Bye bye. Have a nice day =)

Examination : )

Hi guys,

Sorry didn't blog for a very long time, cuz I am having my final exams. It started on the tuesday (1/10), I sat for my sejarah paper 3 that day. All I can say about the paper is it was easy because my sejarah teacher called us to buy a reference book and everything came out from that book, so all I did was copy copy and copy for three hours. By the time I finish copying, my lower and shoulder hurted so badly.

Next, I sat for my account paper on Thursday. I guess I was too nervous, I accidentally wrote 340 into 3400, that made my untung bersih become rugi bersih, luckily I realise that mistake, but still I didn't get to.balance my account. I just felt that there wasn't enough time.

And then I sat for my B.M paper on friday. I think I am kinda satisfied of what I wrote. Thank God for kept on giving me points for my b.m essay. My right hand hurt so badly after paper one and two, I didn't even have enough strength to eat, but its food, so I rest awhile and had my lunch.

Thats all about week's exam, I'll be sitting for my economy, chinese and english paper next week, so wish me all the best :)

Bye bye